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Nasadiya Sukta

Sunday, June 25th, 2017

Then even nothingness was not, nor existence,
There was no air then, nor the heavens beyond it.
What covered it? Where was it? In whose keeping?
Was there then cosmic water, in depths unfathomed?

Then there was neither death nor immortality
nor was there then the torch of night and day.
The One breathed windlessly and self-sustaining.
There was that One then, and there was no other.

At first there was only darkness wrapped in darkness.
All this was only unillumined water.
That One which came to be, enclosed in nothing,
arose at last, born of the power of heat.

In the beginning desire descended on it –
that was the primal seed, born of the mind.
The sages who have searched their hearts with wisdom
know that which is kin to that which is not.

And they have stretched their cord across the void,
and know what was above, and what below.
Seminal powers made fertile mighty forces.
Below was strength, and over it was impulse.

But, after all, who knows, and who can say
Whence it all came, and how creation happened?
the gods themselves are later than creation,
so who knows truly whence it has arisen?

Whence all creation had its origin,
he, whether he fashioned it or whether he did not,
he, who surveys it all from highest heaven,
he knows – or maybe even he does not know.[wiki]

—Translated by A. L. Basham

This is the 129th hymn of the 10th Mandala of the Rigveda (10:129).


These hymns exhibit a level of philosophical speculation very atypical of the Rig-Veda, which for the most part is occupied with ritualistic invocation. And this hymns has been becoming my favorite hymns from Rig-Veda.

What is interesting about this hymns is that it keeps the origin of the Existence before creation  in an unanswerable question, without speculating any answer, like god behind it. In fact there is also the hymns which said that even “gods themselves are later than creation”. In the form of a paradoxical poetry, it states something interesting at the end of the hymns “or maybe even he does not know”. I believe this is referring to the “Nothingness” before creation as Pure Consciousness, without any manifested qualities and activities  including “knowing” itself, because knowing was also an activity and required object which need to be known. Therefore in the state of Pure Consciousness there was no “knowing activity”, time ceased, space ceased, all duality ceased as the hymns state “even nothingness was not, nor existence”, There was no colors no darkness  (“At first there was only darkness wrapped in darkness”) .

This is the state of Nirguna Brahman(Unmanifested Reality, “All this was only unillumined water”). The wise approached this understanding by silencing their mind in order to bring their Consciousness into a similar state as that “Nothingness” where all concepts like time and space(“Where was it?”) dissolve back to the source of all perception and conception, The dimensionless and pure Consciousness. (“The sages who have searched their hearts with wisdom
know that which is kin to that which is not.”)


This hymns left us a question not an answer, for us to approach it through practice and  observation.

“Exploration is in our nature. We began as wanderers, and we are wanderers still. We have lingered long enough on the shores of the cosmic ocean. We are ready at last to set sail for the stars.” ~ Carl Sagan


I think this is the purpose of our existence, which is to play (Lilla) not some easy play, but the play of knowledge, exploration and observation. If all answers had been given, what is the fun of life? Throughout the history, mystery is what makes our life excited isn’t it ?

Carl Sagan quote this Hymns also in this video.

Learn Karma Yoga from Ahok

Sunday, April 30th, 2017


“If all the Upanishads and all the other scriptures
happened all of a sudden to be reduced to ashes,
and if only the first verse in the Isha Upanishad
were left in the memory of the Hindus,
Hinduism would live forever.”
~ Mahatma Gandhi


“The Lord is enshrined in the hearts of all.
The Lord is the supreme Reality.
Rejoice in him through renunciation.
Covet nothing. All belongs to the Lord.”

~first verse of Isha Upanishad


Kekuasaan itu Tuhan yang beri dan Tuhan yang ambil ~ Basuki Tjahaya Purnama

The election for Jakarta Governor has been done. 58% from total population finally bring a new Governor to lead Jakarta for the next 5 years. We all hope that this result will still continue as what had been started by current Governor, which has made almost 4000 people send  flowers to him and his vice governor, after the result of quick count shows that he  no longer will be able to lead Jakarta in the next 5 years. Basuki Tjahaya Purnama or Ahok. He has been becoming a uniq phenomenon since he won the election as vice Governor of former Governor Joko Widodo, which now leads the whole country as a President, and automatically made Ahok lead Jakarta in the last 2 years.  For me as one of Jakarta citizen for the last 11 years, Joko Widodo, and then it’s continued  by Ahok, is the only leader combination which has been successfully bringing a great change to this city.  I’ve seen so many improvements  from the simplest stuff like how they manage the citywalk and make it friendly to the disabled people, cleaning up the rivers and sterilize them, which has successfully  reduced the flood, that had been becoming the image of the city for such a long time, fix the mess in public transportation, adding more clean and good quality of busses,  up until how they secure “people money”  by implementing electronic budgeting system, which made detail control  down to the working level possible. Many more programs which are base on his purpose to make this complicated city to become a better place to live. I like his idea “only by being a government we can help many people by using none of our own money, even we will be able to help even more people by it.”

Ahok remind me with two people which both have been teaching  me about the path of action(Karma Yoga), Mahatma Gandhi and Mother Teresa. Both are people which dedicated their whole live to help others without any personal egocentric interest. They have been becoming  my spiritual teacher, which teach the world how to live for others, not because told by some king-like being up there in the sky, but by seeing  the Divine’s enshrined in each of us as a living being.

“Keep your heart pure. A pure heart is necessary to see God in each other. If you see God in each other, there is love for each other, then there is peace.” ~Mother Teresa


I’ve seen how Ahok received many complains from his people directly in “Balai Kota”, I can feel his sincerity in serving his citizen which came to him one by one. This is exactly as what  Gandhi and Mother Teresa show us years ago.  The difference is, Ahok choose to help others by becoming government, fix the bureaucracy so the social equality will be sustained even though he will no longer be elected to lead this city one more period.   He dedicated his life, (I don’t want to say to help people because not every people will benefit from they way he fix stuff in this complicated city) to greater purpose, for  the benefit of the whole society. This is the core teaching of Karma Yoga or the path of action, dedicate our life for a greater benefit, for the benefit of the society. Therefor I can say, India might be proud of their Karma Yogi like Gandhi and Mother Teresa, but here in this very religious country, I proud have ever been leaded by Ahok. For me, and may be for many people not only in Jakarta but across the country, Ahok not only has been becoming a person or a leader, which now has been taken by his rival,  but also as an inspiration and motivation for us  especially youngsters, to continue his work and make this country a better place to live, by following his integrity and spirit in helping others.

Here is only one sample how he welcomes everyone to “Balai Kota” and take 33 decisions in 17 minutes , a super efficient leader huh?

33 keputusan dalam 17 menit (30.9 detik per 1 keputusan)This is a SUPER EFFECTIVE GOVERNOR… and Jakarta will lost this extraordinary leader soon… very soon…#ahokthelegend #puaspuasinsebelumoktober #euphoriasebelumoktober

Posted by Arifo Adhinoto on Sunday, April 30, 2017


Ahok might be born in a different religious tradition  as mine, does it really matter in bringing a greater benefit ?  Just like Gandhi quote above, as people which was born in Hindu Tradition, is not about what you’re wearing , not about the place you visit every  holiday, not about the language which you use in the scriptures, not also about the holy books you read and recite every night, neither about gods or goddesses you project outside from your own mind,  not even about the label “Hindu”  itself which you use to call your tradition, or  you put in your id, which you proud of, and even many times you use to compete with other traditions selfishly. All of that stuff will not make you a real hindu practitioner.  It’s all about your capability to see Divinity which enshrined in every living being, to act completely egolessly, to bring greater benefit for whole society.  Can be trough helping people directly like Mother Teresa, or building a better sustainable system in society like what Ahok did, even just by sharing knowledge and beneficial understanding about life, as what my teacher ask me to do and put it as a daily practice in life. Helping people not always about giving money, there are even more people suffer psychologically, especially in this stressful city.

This is Yoga, this is the path of realization,  not as a limited ego behind your skin,   but as our true identity as Divine, which pervade everything, every living and non living being, including the people sitting next to you, that the religion field in his id might be completely different from yours. The Divine identity which is not separated from each others whatsoever, despite the difference in physical appearance and identity we had.  A final realization about life and about who we are,  not about how many books we memorize, that make our ego says that we know everything, let alone about the clothes we’re wearing which makes you feel superior compare to the others. Those are the biggest none-sense which created delusion and suffering to humanity over and over again throughout history, hatred, war, terrorism.. you name it!! Go beyond this very ego as a small individual, or just as a group of clown compete each others and start ruining the whole world. Go to our true  deathless  identity as a Whole. There you’ll find that our true self will never be able to hurt others, or should I say, to hurt itself. This realization should be the foundation of our society and morality, not because dictated by somebody else, or base on FEAR of something we don’t know, but through our own experience about our egoless identity. 

This is the essence which I learn from the way Ahok lead Jakarta for the last 2 years.  I’m not promoting him politically, He has been lost anyway. From him I’ve learn something and  experience what my teacher said, that a lesson might be coming from any direction, even from our own enemies .

May Peace will always be with every one of us as an individual entity an also as a society, beyond this very ego.


Jakarta Senja Ini

Friday, April 21st, 2017







Semoga tumpukan sampah tetap tidak menghina penciuman kita,
Sungai-sungai yang tersedak tak lagi
menghina keindahan pandangan mata

Semoga tak tertatanya taman-taman
Tidak menodai hak anak-anak berlari, tertawa, dan bercanda,
Semoga kelicikan, keserakahan, dan jabatan
Tidak menista ahlak, dia yang lakunya menyiratkan agama,
Kata yg hatiku…
Tak tau lagi maknanya

Karena kekalahan tak mengurangi benci
Kehancuran tetap dimaki
Jasa dan karya terpuruk oleh caci
Bukan lagi kalah atau menang, hanya dengki

Hukum, tetap tegak kita usung bersama
Tapi maaf adalah kelegaan hati manusia
Bukan tentang jeruji dia sang pendosa
Tapi kelengahan hati akan api neraka

Kami takut semua itu terlupa,
saat nyinyir berbalas nyinyir
Kami rindu kita bersaudara
Saat antara kita senyum tetap mengalir

Betapa indah dunia jika cinta sebesar kebencian kita

A Friendly Galungan Conversation

Friday, September 9th, 2016


Hello Yudi :)! How are you?
I am writing you from the heart of Ubud! I am with my parents and since we arrived on Bali we really enjoy our time here 🙂
Bali Barat was amazing and yesterday we did TanahLot. Today we go to Tritemple with motorbike in order to visit the countryside and other place (GoaGoja..)
Unfortunately not time for Batur or Besaki :/ buy we will come back ^^
People are so nice agin and also so beautiful !
Indeed we understood that there was a big ceremony two days ago and for one week..
May I ask you what this ceremony is? What is the purpose and what people do?
And can you enjoy this ceremony in Jakarta?

Our only regret here is to have a guide always with to explain us each temple and each status and each way how people behave ^^ this is so completely new world for us and really magical 🙂

Hope you’re fine Yudi!

A la prochaine ( you were right ?)!



Hi Sophie!!! I was exhausted, I was a little bit busy for the last few days. I had been joining a training outside the office, and had to come back to the office at the afternoon, to join the class. However now I’m super great, especially after reading your message. Oh My God that was a really really great compliment. Really really love to hear that. I’m always happy to share the beauty of Bali, not just because it’s my homeland, but also because I believe it’s present might help many people around the world, from deferent background, to release their stress and be happier. it’s not about my ego as a Balinese but more about sharing a good thing for others. As you have might also understood, most illness now experienced by the world is psychologic, caused by unhappy mind, stress, fear and anxiety. That is also the meaning of all ceremony in Bali, including Galungan(last Wednesday) , the one that you mentioned above. It’s common meaning is about celebrating the victory of Goodness against Badness. And people will be celebrating it up until 10 days, ended in Kuningan day in the next Saturday(next weekend). So you in the right time now being in Bali. You will find a lot of magical stuff along the way, like Ngelawang where people dace the Barong(like barong sai in China) around the village as the symbol of Goodness . And also you will also be welcomed with Penjor, a beautiful coconut leaf decoration which you will find across the road there. You may say it as a our Christmas Tree 😀



In Bali actually people believe that this winning will not be last forever, because the world would not be turning if there were no Badness present, heaven would not be existing without hell, every duality need a comparation to be exist and valuable. Therefore Balinese prefer balance in every aspect of their life. It’s symbolized with a black and white color which you will find alot a cross Bali, something like Yin Yang symbol and philosophy. Therefore this winning is actually the winning against our ego which has been causing alot of psychological troubles in life and the world. And we believe a colorful and fun celebration is one way we get rid of all mess in our head. That is why, that’s the holiday which I always waited when I was a child, a super cool and colourful day. We went around the village to pray, to the temples, especially Tri Murti temples as the place we worship the 3 main aspects of whole Existence. Creation Symbolize as Brahma which is worshipped in Desa temple, then Visnu which is the symbol of preserver of the continuity of Existence, which is worshipped in Puseh temple, and Dalem temple as the place to worship Shiva as the symbol of the destroyer aspect of Existence. And as you might see also, that these evens have been being cycled again and again. That is also have a meaning that those evens, Creation, Preserverance and Devastation, are in the eternal cycle without start and end, outwardly and also inwardly 🙂

Then we also went to several temples, mostly a family temple to express our respect to our ancestors as our “source” of physical body and psychological body like knowledge etc. which have made us been able to walk our life properly. And then we also dress traditionally along the day, just like the one which I was wear in Gunung Salak last time we went there, but hopefully you don’t have the same unpleasant experience as we had in Gunung salak regarding the people :(. I really couldn’t believe that a Balinese people, especially those who should have a wider understanding and experience outside, has that kind of attitude toward people which has so much respect in their culture. But anyway every society has an exception right ? 😀 Akhh I really miss Bali at this moment. However I have not been able to celebrate it again every time it comes, since I moved to java, except I take a leave . It’s not a national holiday, because this holiday is twice in a year and not using the sun calendar like the guardian calendar, but the moon calendar, so we have a different calculation every six month, can not be determined using common calendar.

That’s all I could say about Bali and a little bit about Galungan holiday. I hope you enjoy the magic of Bali especially in the Galungan and Kuningan day. Can’t not wait your story next time we meet again. About guide for the next visit I can be your guide hahaha I will might be able to share many things, and you might also stay in my house and enjoy the day to day life in Bali. Just tell me long before the trip so I can prepare my leave and we might also celebrating Galungan again in Bali together. Profitez de voyage et d’avoir du plaisir dans ma patrie (again this is google translate hahahah, I hope it’s spelled correctly)

Semedi Is Not A Beneficial Activity, Don’t Do It

Thursday, February 25th, 2016

I hate Monday. A sentence which is not relevant anymore for me in the last few years. Monday has been becoming a day which I always wait. Because at this day, in the afternoon after office hour, I can release my tension in a Hatha Yoga Class in my Office. I’m glad that my office is one of the few offices which provide Hatha Yoga as one of the exercising class as part of the human development program. This monday, as usual, I left my desk at 5 PM, prepared  my self for the class at 5:30. I packed my stuff, put it in the bag and grab my Yoga mat. And then with a couple of my office mate, heading to the class in next level of the building. Something interesting has happened for several times, on the way to our Hatha Yoga class. Just like last monday, one of my office mate,  which I met in the elevator, asked us curiously where we were heading to, complete with our mat which’s hanging on our body, which pretty much made us different compared another passenger. “We are going for a yoga class”, one of  my colleague answered his question spontaniouslly. “Okhh Semedi Semedi?” he said and we could not answer more than a simple smile about that question. “Have you been able to fly?” he continued, and it made our smile even sweeter. This kind of question is thrown almost every time we meet “similar kind of people” on the way we went to a Hatha Yoga class, with our mat hanging on our shoulder. And I can not blame their ignorance about what we are actually doing during a Hatha Yoga class. Hatha Yoga itself basically an ancient physical exercise system which was design in order to improve our physical body just like another type of modern exercise. And with a healthy body, we can use it as any kind of purpose in life, either spiritually or another kind of activities or improvement in life. It’s not some kind of a religious ritual or something like that, even though in the ancient time this exercise was used as a preparation for more advanced spiritual practice like another kind of Yoga, which required a very healthy body in practicing it.


Semedi is the word which is very familiar in Indonesian culture, especially in Javanese and Balinese language and culture. And interestingly, most of Indonesian people, when they hear the word “Yoga” the first image which arise into their mind is a person which is sitting in a Lotus posture,  which they call “Semedi”. And they have also a little bit negative image for people which is doing this “Semedi” activity. Yup, for those, the aim of the people,  which are doing this activity,  is inorder to get some magical power, and it’s prohibited by many major religious traditions in this country, including Hinduism and Buddhism, which actually have a very deep relationship with meditation. Why? Because if the goal of a practice is to get some magical power, like flying, just like what was imagine by my colleague above, moreover when it’s used to harm others or to fulfill desire more and more, then this “semedi” stuff will be an activity which will drown a man in more and more deeper attachment. So I pretty much agree which prohibition that most common people has in their culture, about this “semedi”. It’s  not a beneficial practice to be done. So don’t do it.




The word “semedi” itself actually came from a sanskrit root Samādhi,  which is very well known and used in several Indian schools of Philosophy,  especially Patanjali Yoga School of Philosophy. Samādhi is not a verb or activity, it is the latest limb of Patanjali Yogic System, as the goal of their method as described in here ( This term is also widely used in several Buddhism and Jainishm Schools of Phylosophy, as a Non-Dualistic State of Consciousness in which the Consciousness of the experiencing subject becomes one with the experienced object. It said that samādhi is a meditative absorption, attained by the practice of dhyāna(one pinted mind). In samādhi the mind becomes still. It is a state of being totally aware of the present moment; a one-pointedness of mind. We actually sometimes experience this state of Consciousness also in “deep sleep”, a sleep where there is no objects or events which build a dream. Not event time and space were presented. We intuitively experience the period of this event in a very short of time, like a blink of an eye. The space is also seems collapsed, completely blank, no-thing there to be experienced. This is because in this moment, our mind is completely resting as Pure Consciousness. Time and space which are products of the mind are dissolved as the mind becomes completely still.


However in Samādhi we do it willingly with fully aware about the process of dissolving the mind. Start from the absorption of all physical objects of senses  perception into the mind realm(Pratyahara), until the absorption of the mind itself as the result of the focusing(Dharana) and Contemplating(Dyana) the mind. It is not about emptying the mind, it is about directing the mind in one-pointed object and then turn or dissolve the focus into its source, the Consciousness. And the moment the mind purely falls and stay into its source, is called the state of Samādhi. This is the most peaceful state which man could have. A Non-Dualistic state where all problems, as the result of the mind-world interaction, are dissolved. The objects and the subject become One, as the meaning of the word Yoga itself, Union. This state is like fragrance of a rose, the closer we are, the stronger the fragrant of the rose we smell. Even though we don’t reached this state yet completely, the closer we are along with our practice, the more we might have wisdom from it. We might understand many things, like the nature of the mind along with its contents, and even the wisdom about death. And the most important wisdom we might have is the understanding about our true nature, “The Indestructible Self. Indestructible… not because it’s so strong, but because it’s so empty” my mentor said.


Sunyata, The Empty Void. Void not because there’s nothing there, but because our mind has no idea about It” -Alan Watts



We all, whatever tradition we take as our spiritual path, always live in three state as the evolution of the Consciousness. Awaking state, where we perceive the senses objects as the material world, Dreaming state where all senses perception objects are dissolved and only the mind which is active and create the dream world, or maybe heaven and hell realm, by itself. Even though we’re in heaven as most tradition believe exists after we die, we are going to experience the objects of heaven. Let’s say we have a beautiful flower in heaven, there will be shapes and colours as its objective perception and there will also be “beauty” as the mind conception. This again will be the source of desire and attachment, and perhaps one time the “beauty” of it would also be very boring. That’s the nature of the mind isn’t it?

However when all of this objective senses perception and mind conception rest in its Source, Consciousness, there will be the ultimate peace we might experience. Far beyond Heaven and Hell, No more good and bad,  no more beauty and ugliness, no more “black” and “white”, no more subject and objects,   just an ultimate peaceful inseparable unchanging state without any judgment at all,  therefore no more problems, questions and doubts. Only  the Ultimat Happiness, Ultimate Peace(Parama Shanti) .   And to attend this condition, first we have to let go or rest both perception as the product of the senses,  and conception as the product of the mind. We “Surrender” completely both elements, senses and mind to their Source.

See.. there is no magical power, or any other hijibiji experience to be attained whatsoever. Forget about magical power, we rest all ordinary things,  we even rest all desires of world, all attacements, all emotions, all concepts and the most important of them, we rest our body and mind, fall them back to its Source, The Consciousness. This is Samādhi, this  is the goal of a real Yogi, even many great traditions also. A total surrender, not only surrendering the world, but also the mind and all of its contents. You might throw away all these terms , Samādhi, Yoga or whatever terms which came from a particular tradition. It’s not something you have to believe, but a stuff you might explore in day to day experience. Look deeply into our life, our problems and turn them inwardly within. Layer by layer from our body, our mind and beyond.


The “I” which is capable of perceiving this vast Universe, The “I” which capable of creating a dream world as real as the awaking world by itself. What could it be? What is the nature of it? The “I”? As what now quantum physic also said, “The Observer,  without which, the physical world is just a matter of potential,  just a mirage”. I really really hope more and more people are interested in this subject. Don’t have to put it as a believe or something religious and mystical , just get use to it, falling back home to The Source, the Pure Consciousness, the state where the ultimate peace can be attaind or at least fall to its fragrance. The state which will bring a great understanding about the true nature of our self, and that we’re just having fun in this life, in all of these experiences, nothing will last forever, therefore nothing to be afraid, live our live in a happy way, whatever coming will also left behind, just like a dream. This will charge our energy in facing this ever-changing world. At last, May Peace will always be available  for all Sentient Being.


Om Shanti, Shanti, Shanti OM